Lockdown poem: Living with a Demon

September 21, 2020

Collage by Exposure; mirror by Med Ahabchane, demon by Ruth Archer and tear by OpenClipart-Vectors from Pixabay

Mickey Peters takes us on a journey of struggle with school work during lockdown

I was full of mixed emotions; fear, anger and self-hatred
At times I wanted my life to be over
At the time it felt like that was the best option
At least then I wouldn’t have to struggle with school and there would be no pressure
I wouldn’t have to worry about what life would be like in the future.

But I know deep down that it is a long term solution to a short term problem.

I told myself that the monotonous days of my horrific life have to end
I’ve got to turn my thinking around
I decided to take a stand and make my voice heard
After all I do live in a democracy with freedom of speech.

I started taking matters into my own hands with the intention of having a better life, an easy life.

I emailed my local MP in search of some advice and guidance into not doing GCSEs
This was the main problem in my life
The reason my mental health was not so good.

I felt tortured, forced into education.

Teachers just remind me of prison guards.

My only goal is for some sort of normality to return before it was too late
Let’s see what happens next – at least I’m on my way.

This poem was produced in partnership with F.U.S.E. (Fun Unique Social Escape), working with young people living on housing estates to show them a world outside of it:

Produced with mentorship from Exposure alumnus Joey Leskin.

Mickey enjoys aviation and giving back to his community.

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