Ben Teeny channels his emotions and curiosity through songwriting and music production
Lockdown has been strange. Sometimes it’s been okay, but sometimes I find myself anxious and confused, and sometimes I just want things to go back to normal. I’d love to go to a gig at a pub with more than six people!
With more space for self-reflection, I’ve experienced a gamut of emotions: from joy to nostalgia to sorrow. Getting my thoughts and feelings down on paper and then shaping them into a tune, key and rhythm is a comforting and exciting process for me. It helps make sense of the world and myself.
At first, I didn’t have anything specific in mind when I began to create my song, ‘It’s A Personality’. I kind of just let my mind wander; exploring abstract stuff like a random place or person, a feeling, an experience, a moment, the changing of a season. I think I see things visually first, and then formulate the images in my head and start writing from there.
I sometimes have a phrase or key line as a starting point, then build my song around it. For this song I had the title first and everything kind of sprung from that.
There wasn’t any particular concept or profound idea really. The song developed into an expression of how I see myself, what I think about and what I find challenging.
For this track, which is part of my bedroom lockdown project, which consists of collaborations with friends and some solo stuff, I sing the vocals and arranged the music. I play the guitars (bass, lead and rhythm) and the drums are sampled from drummer tracks on GarageBand. I hope to share more as the year goes by.
The ability to use emotion in my work – positive or negative, pleasant or unpleasant, funny or dark – helps me better understand my experiences and thinking. It can only be a good thing, right? I recommend it.
I hope you enjoy my song.
It’s A Personality (lyrics) Every time I think of you I lose the game that we’re all in It’s much harder, than it seems.
Every single development is the same in my story It’s all just, a boring sitcom.
I think I took risks that were unnecessary, I may be hilarious but I’m still disgusting, oh!
I think personally We’re all certainly In need of clarity For rhyming naturally I think actually We’re all naturally Unaware of our Beautiful stars.